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rampage Current mood:discontent rampage murderous rampage killing every cell leaving nothing but blood to tell that i was ever human i was ever alive but never did i live but that i did die 2:09 PM, written April 2007, pulled from my Myspace

Life Hurts Current mood:betrayed Some people know just what to do to get to you. They know just what to say to make it feel like a knife in your heart. Things could not get worse I don't believe. I feel like crap and am depressed all the time now. Life really sucks sometimes. But I was told that GOD will not put you through anything that you cannot handle. So I guess that means I can handle this. But that doesn't mean that I will make the right decision and that doesn't mean that I won't make things worse than they are. (But I hope not...) There seems to always be someone who means well but what they say never helps. There is always someone

So I find myself again Sitting here In the dark Trying to be so quiet Trying to find a calm breath All the words running through my head Why can't I just forget? Always stuck in the past When I can't change anything I can't hold it back I am so stupid and weak Why can't I just hang on a little longer? Fight this urge harder Some days it's all I know And it keeps me all alone.

There is no peace in this life Everyday is a new day of concern I wait for a reprieve but nothing comes I am an inch from the point of no return No one can know how I feel Unless you feel it too The pain is neverending I feel it in my chest I wish I could stop pretending The smile stretched ever so tightly No tears, no tears Why do you make me be this? This thing that I am not? I'm so tired of giving I've given all I've got I'm waiting for a new life A life that is quiet A life that is peaceful A real smile where nothing is hidden behind Now this This is something I've got to find